Playing Hooky

So my son tells me this morning that he was not feeling good today. I decided to keep them both home from school. I didn't think that I should venture out in the -5 degree weather to just take one child to school. I, once again, think that I was fooled. My son is not acting sick at all. I might have gotten swindled. Oh well I guess we played hooky today.

There is a 2 hour delay for school tomorrow, which is nice. I will get to sleep in a little and that is awesome! Any day that involves me sleeping in is great.

I gotta say I love it when everything gets icy and the trees are filled with frost. I just want to go out there and take pictures of it but my current camera isn't great at it. Good news is that I bought my very first professional camera today!! It will be amazing!! I am so excited. I hope that the trees freeze again! I am going to go crazy with it. WOOOO!! I can't wait til it gets here!!

I work alone.

I almost had to run the store all by myself today. I was so frustrated that I wanted to bawl. Everyone freaks out at the slightest bit of snow. So, at 11 o'clock this morning when 3 people were suppose to come in, only one ended up at work. She was probably like 5 minutes late to boot. I was so relieved to see her that I didn't care  that she was late. The next two people came in about an hour late.

I was so pissed and wanted to yell at all of them. I didn't because I didn't want to work alone. Sometimes I feel like I am the only person there that even cares. (excluding my boss and a couple other workers) I work with a bunch of whiny little brats. They don't know that this job is easy, probably the easiest one that they will ever have. The customers didn't do anything to you so don't take it out on them. They are the reason that you can buy all the things you want to buy. Do you want to make more money? Then get another job. 

I just hate it when people don't appreciate what they have.  

Ice ice baby.

Oh it is icy outside. It was like I was ice skating in the parking lot. Freezing fog and all that good stuff. I hope I don't have a serious sheet of ice on my car in the morning. Good thing I just invested in some deicer for my car.

I need to make a late night run to wally world. Ugh.. I don't want to but I know it has to be done. Oh well.

I had a lot of fun out with the ladies last night. I got pretty tipsy and had my first shot of Patron. It was really good and I don't even like tequila all that much. I only danced a little but it was so horribly hot in the downstairs of the bar. All in all it was a fun night. Lots of good times had and memories made. 

Goin out on the town.

What part of party don't ya understand??? Oh it is ladies night and I'm feeling right. HA!! Yep yep I am going out with some girls and we are gonna get crunk. I don't have time for a long post, but oh well. I need a night out and some fun.


Peace out yo!!!

Taking the high road sucks.

Sometimes I just wish I could be hurtful and mean, but that is just not me at all. I hate wasting my energy on negative feelings. I just hate when people get to me and hurt my feelings. I just want them to feel the pain that I feel tenfold! I know that karma will work things out.


You may ask why I am feeling this way. Well, today is my ex's birthday (the most recent one) I won't lie, it's a tough day for me. Things have not really ended with us. I hate that. I haven't talked to him since the 8th of this month and I haven't even seen him this year! So I am assuming that it is over, no, it is over. I will not continue to be treated like an option. 


I know that I deserve WAY better. Some of the things he said to me just blew me away. I just hate the person I was when I was with him. It was like he was a disease and I didn't want a cure.


**high off of love drunk from my hate
it’s like i’m huffin’ paint and i love it the more i suffer, i suffocate**

It is all about me now. I am going to do the best I can to move on. I know I am better then him.  I just need to give myself the love that I deserve. I can do that the best on my own. Thanks for just letting me vent. 

Bittersweet

Now, I know I will have much more to add on this subject of excitement. Today, well last night, I got a phone call at work. It was my mom and she told me that they accepted an offer that she put on a house!!! A HOUSE!! I am so happy for her. This has been a dream of hers for a long time. I can't wait to see it and I am kinda sad I haven't yet.

This is a bit bittersweet for me because the place that she lives in now is where I spent all of my teenage years. I know I need to let it go, but it is sad for me. All the memories..... The first "real'' party I had was there. I had countless sleepovers and birthday parties there. That is the place where I brought my first son home from the hospital. I use to just walk around the neighborhood and meet my friends outside under the streetlights. I camped out in the backyard and slept through the neighbor dog getting sprayed by a skunk and sneaking in our tent. Doing cheers with the neighbor girl on a picnic table. Oh I could go on with the memories.

I know that even if she doesn't move that I would have to let go of that place. It lies on the flood plains here and they are planning a rezone. I have no interest in living there but it will hurt to pack it all up to a new place. I know seeing the excitement that my mom will be going through will be contagious. A new neighborhood for my kids to explore. A nice garage for my mom so she won't have to scrape her windows. It will be closer to me and her work. So many new and exciting things await this happy time. 

It's my Friday!

Yeah!!! I don't work for the next two days! I am so ready to be off work. Its not like I have been really busy at work but it is just nice to have some days off!

I feel like I am not in a very good mood today, despite my two day mini vacation. I don't know why I am not in good spirits. I guess once again, it's just one of those days. I just feel so confused about everything. I feel like I am over thinking everything. Ugh.....make it stop.