Pre-labor is so much fun.

I just need to vent. I have a million and one things to complain about. My back hurts, I go to the bathroom constantly, I have these stupid contractions after working a couple of hours! I worked all day today and it sucked. I am constantly worried about going into labor at work. I just need a little rest. I can't wait to feel like my normal self again. I know I am having some fears about not knowing if I am in labor, but I am sure that I will. 

I've been taking it easy.

I had a long day of antenatal testing, and almost thought that they would be sending me to the hospital. I guess my little bun decided to behave and she got her heart rate right where it was suppose to be. I was still on the verge of freaking out, and still am a little. I think I am mostly just worried about working and not being able to rest when I need to. I should have gotten a doctors note. I expect to have a busy weekend with the Pow Wow in town. I just hope they don't give me any grief or I might have to freak out. I know I just need to sit back a relax, believe me I am trying. I got a lot of sleep today! I pretty much slept the day away. Oh well. I just hope work goes ok tomorrow.

I'm fixing my nest.

I think it has finally kicked in, my nesting that is. I just got done watching hoarders and it made me want to clean so bad. I actually had to pause the episode and do a sink full of dishes and throw a giant bag of clutter away. I organized my medicine cabinet and have been going through some of my things that I think I can throw away. Only question is now how am I going to get all of this out of my house. I guess one bag at a time will do. I worked until my hips started to ache. I have the next week without my sons and I hope to get a lot done. I know I will feel so much better once it gets done. I am just glad that it started to kick in. I don't want to have to worry about clutter when I have a newborn in the house. I just hope I can keep this up. I know I can.  

Another day...

Just another day in the life of me. I didn't do much of anything but hang with the kids and work. I am so ready for the weekend. I think I will try to get motivated, ha good luck with that one. Nothing new here to tell. Just another boring day. Same old stuff here.

What is this feeling.

I guess I am sick of feeling crappy. I guess you can blame mood swings for this, I now have this "dreamy" sort of feeling. Maybe it's the country music that makes me feel this way. I don't know if that is the right description of my feelings. I guess there is a thing about country music that gets to me.

Today was a decent day, besides my sleep catching up to me and being late to get the kids to school. I felt bad, but then again I didn't. I know that I am very pregnant and I need my rest. It doesn't happen often so I gave myself a little slack. I spent a nice day with the kids. It felt good to help them with their homework and let them play. We all ate some good supper together and then had some pudding for desert. It was nice. I didn't feel very well but I enjoyed the time. I am looking forward to working during the day tomorrow as well. 

All I can do is try.

I am feeling a little down. I don't know if its from lack of sleep, or what. I am just feeling so defeated and tired. I need some rest, like a weeks worth. It just seems like I am constantly needing to think about something. If its not about what needs to be done around the house, it's something I need to do with assistance. I always have to think about the food I put in my body. I have to think about money and where I spend it. I am always thinking about my 2 boys, and their school work. I constantly think about weather I am making the right choices as a parent. I think about my daughter's father. I think about why he doesn't think about me and our baby. I just need a break. But, the point is, all I can do is try. I just need to remind myself that no one is perfect. I WILL make mistakes, and I WILL learn from them. I just gotta give all my love and energy to my kids. 

Going to bed early...I hope

I'm fighting sleep by watching Dancing With The Stars. I should be laying down right now and trying to sleep. I have been so tired and so drained all day long. I really wanted to get some stuff done, well I did do a few things, but I really wanted to get super motivated. I guess it will come to me when it's meant to be. I just feel like there is so much to be done and so few days to do it all. I guess that comes with my position. I am not whining but it takes a lot of effort to move this body these days. I am ready to sleep this day off and try it again tomorrow.