Induction day!

So I am scheduled to be induced today! I am so tired, I just wish I had a day or two to catch up on some sleep. I have not been sleeping well these past few days. I could probably sleep now, but I have to be up at 4am and call labor and delivery. I am a little nervous but excited at the same time. I seemed to have went through a thousand emotions today. I cried because I realized that I was home by myself for the last time today. The boys were at school and I had time to myself. I won't be getting that for a while. I am just hoping, and praying that everything goes smoothly. I am feeling a little antsy. I suppose that is to be expected. I guess most of all is I am excited to see my little girls face. 

I'm 30 now!

It is official! I am a thirty year old woman. I don't feel any different. I feel large and pregnant! I suppose all this pregnancy stuff took my mind off of being another year older.

I have to say my birthday was a toughie. This whole week has been a trying one. I got bad news on my birthday that my children's babysitter passed away. It was so out of left field. It seemed to happen so fast. I was really emotional and still am a bit. She was an older lady (63) but I never thought she would pass. She has been a part of me and my kids' lives for about 5 years. I know a lot of her family because I was told about her through her sister in law, which is also my boss. I haven't told my children about her passing yet. I did tell them that she was sick. I don't want them to see me emotional. I remember the effect it had on me when I first saw my mom cry. But I know we will remember the good times about Patty. She sure had one hell of a personality.

Ok, enough of that. I don't really know if I am going to change to a different blog or not. I am still undecided about that. So I guess I will just post stuff here until I get a little more organized. This little one should be here in about a week or so. So much going on in my life. It's crazy to think where I was this time last year..... Wow what a difference a year makes. 

1 more day...

So today I will spend the last day of my 20's seeing my baby girls face on the ultrasound machine. I am happy for that, I am also a little sad. No big celebration planned for my birthday. I have a doctor's appointment that day, I just hope I don't have to give birth that day. I know that it may sound selfish but I don't want to share my birthday. I just don't want to be sad on my birthday. I know a pity party isn't the kind I need. I am not even sad to say goodbye to my twenties. I am ready to be in my 30's. I just wish I could go out and be carefree and not have all of the uncomfortable feelings and feeling like my baby could be here anytime. I don't know what I am going to do with the blog just yet. I kind of forgot about it....(sorry) I have been preoccupied with pregnancy. If you ever wanted to take your mind off of turning 30 just be massively pregnant during the time. I would like to say that I do want to continue to make posts. I love having the ability to just put down all my feelings and worries. I don't worry that anyone will judge me anymore. I like having worked towards that. 

Pre-labor is so much fun.

I just need to vent. I have a million and one things to complain about. My back hurts, I go to the bathroom constantly, I have these stupid contractions after working a couple of hours! I worked all day today and it sucked. I am constantly worried about going into labor at work. I just need a little rest. I can't wait to feel like my normal self again. I know I am having some fears about not knowing if I am in labor, but I am sure that I will. 

I've been taking it easy.

I had a long day of antenatal testing, and almost thought that they would be sending me to the hospital. I guess my little bun decided to behave and she got her heart rate right where it was suppose to be. I was still on the verge of freaking out, and still am a little. I think I am mostly just worried about working and not being able to rest when I need to. I should have gotten a doctors note. I expect to have a busy weekend with the Pow Wow in town. I just hope they don't give me any grief or I might have to freak out. I know I just need to sit back a relax, believe me I am trying. I got a lot of sleep today! I pretty much slept the day away. Oh well. I just hope work goes ok tomorrow.

I'm fixing my nest.

I think it has finally kicked in, my nesting that is. I just got done watching hoarders and it made me want to clean so bad. I actually had to pause the episode and do a sink full of dishes and throw a giant bag of clutter away. I organized my medicine cabinet and have been going through some of my things that I think I can throw away. Only question is now how am I going to get all of this out of my house. I guess one bag at a time will do. I worked until my hips started to ache. I have the next week without my sons and I hope to get a lot done. I know I will feel so much better once it gets done. I am just glad that it started to kick in. I don't want to have to worry about clutter when I have a newborn in the house. I just hope I can keep this up. I know I can.