Just something I found.

I know it's been a while. I haven't posted anything on here for a long while because, well, I am not 29. With all of that aside I wanted to post something that I found. I guess I just wanted a place that I can find it again in case I want to send it to someone.

When yesterdays gone and can't be replaced,
when all that you see are the tears on her face,
maybe then you'll realize the extent of your mistakes
and be willing to do anything that it's going to take.

when its almost too late
only minutes to spare
maybe then you can explain
why you haven't been there

when she looks back and remembers who was there,
and also who wasn't but doesn't even care,
maybe then you'll think twice about what you do,
and everything that you put her through

when she's standing before you all grown,
maybe then you can admit that she's your own,
and you can show her a daddy's love
that yourself, isn't all you ever think of.

when she finally gets to know you
pigs will fly and monkeys too,
cause that's the likelihood you'll follow through.

detour.

I have started a new blog for myself. If you like what you have read go here
www.diaryofasinglemom30.blogspot.com
hope you enjoy.

UPDATE!!

So, I miss you a little. I'm not gonna lie, but I am glad I no longer have the guilty feeling of not posting something when I feel like I have to. I thought I would have posted more on my new blog but I haven't. I have been busy with my sweet little baby. It amazes me how much you can love someone instantly, and how much love can grow. I have been adjusting well, I think, to new mommy-hood. She is not yet sleeping through the night and is currently mixing up night and day. It's not too bad, being sleep deprived, I just make sure I have a full supply of french vanilla creamer for my coffee when I am dragging ass. Work has been pretty easy on me. It was a little hard to transition from maternity leave but I managed.

**baby daddy update**
Ok, for all of you that didn't know, I am a single mother of 3 children. When I started this little bloggy thing, I was a single mom of 2 boys. Anywho, I was seeing a guy and ended up pregnant!! Crazy, I know! I knew when I met him he was trouble. It turned out my gut feelings about him were right. He found out through a mutual "friend" that I was pregnant. I tried multiple time to contact him and got nothing. It has almost been a year since I have seen this guy/douchbag and not a single word from him. We are facebook friends, oddly enough, and I get to see his status updates and such. I know he has a new girlfriend but I am now at the point that I don't care about anything that he does. I am in the process of filing for child support. I did a DNA test right after Christmas and now I'm just waiting for the results. I don't know if anything will change after the results come back that she is his. I don't know if I should reach out and try to contact him, for Leila's sake. She has 1 brother and 3 sisters from him and I would like her to get to know them, but I don't think that it is my place to make that happen. I will probably just wait and see if he/sperm donor, tries to contact me. Who knows, its just a waiting game I guess. It seems like I have been waiting for all of this forever!!