Football Freak.

The game is intense. I usually am biting off all my finger nails and/or clapping so hard my hands hurt! I love the game. I am a huge Steelers fan and will be forever! I guess I should be happy that I get to watch a game even though they are losing..... :(  This game is going to give me an anxiety attack. J/K


So Halloween was great! I thought it would be full of candy/kid drama and crowds that would be unbearable but  it was actually enjoyable. My boys had so much fun! I also had fun last night! I haven't been out for a Halloween celebration in a long time. I enjoyed it a lot! This morning however, seemed to drag on and on.
I do have a few things to say about the happenings of last night but I think I will save it for another blog! I just need to sort out the thoughts in my head and such....

Happy Halloween Ya'll

Lily Allen - 22

Lazy day today

While some of these post will make no sense to any of you, they clearly make sense to me. Well wait, not really all the time.


My ego has been blown up a little lately. I'm just waiting for that giant needle to come along. But, I continue this thinking positive crap and, I think it just might be working. Maybe that is why! Do I ooze it. Does it show?
Well I gotta say that I have been getting use to this whole blogging thing. I kind of have a routine already. I think Its funny! I actually think about it all day long. I think maybe it is making me a better person in some way.....Who knows 


Today has been a seriously lazy day for me. Lots of couch time. I enjoyed it immensely though. I cuddled with both of my children and watched cartoons with them. Now I find myself stumbling through my wardrobe trying to think of a last minute costume to wear.  Yes, I am going out again, Who knows what tonight brings but I think it will be fun. Halloween is always a blast. (sometimes too much so) I think it was about 4 years ago today that I was at a Halloween party and got so wasted that I slid down a flight of stairs and dislocated my thumb, Funny now, not so funny at that moment.


Ahh Halloween memories.

The diary (or start of) a 29 year old.....

***This is from THURSDAY, OCTOBER 21, 2010.....after the bar closed so it is a little alcohol infused***



Ok, first day of being 29 is done. It was a beautiful day today. I would really like to make a goal of documenting every day of the last year of my 20's. Hopefully it will work out. Most of the day was amazing, just all about me and making myself happy. No cake though :( I really do have wonderful friends that are so amazing! I am really excited about all of the things to come. I have set my goals and plan to reach them. (one of them being keeping a blog every day for the last year of my 20's)

The funny thing is that the last day of being 28 was very eye opening. Sometimes only your friends can point out things about you that you didn't quite know. I plan to live every day of my 29th year to its fullest, to focus on the positive and not dwell on the neg. I always want to learn new things not only about myself, but about life. I love my family and I'm learning to love myself. I won't be here forever but I will be happy while I am!!!!!


Happy bday to me, and whoever else shares this day with me.....


I had to copy and paste this from my other blog because I should have made this different blog sooner, rather then later.

http://singlesdmommy.blogspot.com

Lusting Lust....

Have you ever had such an attraction to someone that is just so strong, it scares you. I lust daily for them. Can't stop thinking about how much I am pulled to this person. I have said to myself before that I'm a sucker for a pretty face and right now that could not be more true. I am seriously attracted to said person.....I desire them.
The truth is that the connection is purely lust and nothing else. Sadly I know that I must not make any emotional attachment to them I will not open my heart to them. I know I could get hurt.. As of right now I could care less. I am that person that wants to touch the flame no matter how badly I know I will be burned. I yearn for the feel. I feel like I have been hypnotized by this. Is this so wrong? If it makes you happy it can't be that bad right? Shouldn't I have learned long ago not to play with fire?
I guess I am just guilty of being a moth lured by this flame....

It's just one of them days.

Ok, so I am trying this mobile posting out so I can make sure to not miss a day. I am sitting at work, on break, just thinking. I might just have to finish this later.....work to do.


Ok, I am home from work now! I have had way to much coffee tonight. Yes, I drink it morning, noon, and night!
I have been thinking about a lot of things lately. So much so that I can't ever seem to organize it into complete thoughts, let alone write it down ( or type it) But, I have been inspired! I love that feeling! I don't know what to do with said inspiration.
Today was an "old" day for me. I just felt really old and tired all day long. I need a pick-me-up! I think I need to primp more before I go to work. I never was any good at doing my hair but I gotta try something new. Well I can't think of anything else of importance so until tomorrow......

Easy to read....

If I don't write this down now, I will forget.
I hate that people seem to understand how I am feeling. Or maybe, you would consider that I am easy to read. I don't really know why but it frustrates me I don't even understand myself most of the time! Hi! Don't I get to "get'' me first? Maybe it's a good thing in disguise.

Dare I say that I am becoming a morning person? I like having the fact that I have gotten something accomplished before 10AM. Today is sort of a special day. For one, I think I felt the first snowflake of the year! Ok, so I felt it as the wind raped its way inside my body! Another thing that happened is my oldest son lost another tooth!

Today we will carve pumpkins. I will try to post some sort of pictures if I get the chance. It feels like a good day, even though its cold!

Coffee warms my soul.

The anticipation for the coffee to get done is high today! A day like today needs coffee. Although, it is pretty windy and I don't think the wind needs any caffeine today. I know that we have been blessed with a mild Autumn so far but I don't think I am ready for the cold. Don't get me wrong, I love the snow and playing in it with the boys, but I just don't feel ready. I can't wait to go sledding and to build a snow man but, I am not looking forward to scraping my windows, and warming up my car, and stepping on a piece of snow that is on the floor with bare feet. Oh........the coffee is done. Yum! This morning is now good. Now it is time to relax for a while and maybe listen to some music. All the answers I need are in the music.

It's like I'm standing naked in front of a crowd.

That is what this blog is like for me. Yes, I am exposing myself for everyone to see. All the flaws and such are there for you to see and/or judge. Oh crap! It's ok, I hope. I think there is a time for everyone when you just got to put yourself out there and hope for the best. At least I know that I did it! It will probably get easier as I go but as of right now it is very new and semi exciting and scary. I'm just hoping that this will be therapeutic and freeing. I don't know if people are that interested in what I have to say.... All of this thinking is making my stomach hurt.