Another day...

Just another day in the life of me. I didn't do much of anything but hang with the kids and work. I am so ready for the weekend. I think I will try to get motivated, ha good luck with that one. Nothing new here to tell. Just another boring day. Same old stuff here.

What is this feeling.

I guess I am sick of feeling crappy. I guess you can blame mood swings for this, I now have this "dreamy" sort of feeling. Maybe it's the country music that makes me feel this way. I don't know if that is the right description of my feelings. I guess there is a thing about country music that gets to me.

Today was a decent day, besides my sleep catching up to me and being late to get the kids to school. I felt bad, but then again I didn't. I know that I am very pregnant and I need my rest. It doesn't happen often so I gave myself a little slack. I spent a nice day with the kids. It felt good to help them with their homework and let them play. We all ate some good supper together and then had some pudding for desert. It was nice. I didn't feel very well but I enjoyed the time. I am looking forward to working during the day tomorrow as well. 

All I can do is try.

I am feeling a little down. I don't know if its from lack of sleep, or what. I am just feeling so defeated and tired. I need some rest, like a weeks worth. It just seems like I am constantly needing to think about something. If its not about what needs to be done around the house, it's something I need to do with assistance. I always have to think about the food I put in my body. I have to think about money and where I spend it. I am always thinking about my 2 boys, and their school work. I constantly think about weather I am making the right choices as a parent. I think about my daughter's father. I think about why he doesn't think about me and our baby. I just need a break. But, the point is, all I can do is try. I just need to remind myself that no one is perfect. I WILL make mistakes, and I WILL learn from them. I just gotta give all my love and energy to my kids. 

Going to bed early...I hope

I'm fighting sleep by watching Dancing With The Stars. I should be laying down right now and trying to sleep. I have been so tired and so drained all day long. I really wanted to get some stuff done, well I did do a few things, but I really wanted to get super motivated. I guess it will come to me when it's meant to be. I just feel like there is so much to be done and so few days to do it all. I guess that comes with my position. I am not whining but it takes a lot of effort to move this body these days. I am ready to sleep this day off and try it again tomorrow. 

Geez I missed 5 days.

I've got to say that I haven't felt like posting lately. I don't know why, I just haven't been in the mood. I have been doing things and such and just haven't gotten the urge or feeling to write anything. I am feeling mighty prego these days. I know I don't need to hand out excuses because I need to do what I got to do. I just looked at when I posted last, and felt a little guilty.

I do have to say that I am absolutely in love with the new pictures of my baby girl. Yes, I am for sure having a girl. I printed off more then a dozen of the pictures my doc gave to me. She couldn't stop taking them! I was so amazing to see her face, I even got to see a tiny smile. I am so in love with my little one. I carry around my ultrasound pics to show off to anyone that will look. I just can't wait to see her. It's an amazing feeling. 

One More Month!!!

I can't believe that I only have one more month left in my 20's. I am going to have to go through all my posts and read them sometime. I want to see how much things have changed. I know a lot has changed in a year and I never thought that I would be expecting my 3 child a year ago. Without looking back at my first post, I know that it was a little alcohol infused. I know that is not the way it will end. Ha ha! Oh man, I am beat. My hair hurts, and I need some sleep.

Piss poor excuses.

This isn't just about me making excuses to why I haven't been posting every day. I think if you have read previous posts of mine you would know that I have legit reasons to missing days here and there. I have a lot going on right now and things to figure out. I need to stop making excuses for some things in my life. I need to find a job that is not only financially beneficial, but one that lets me spend time with my children. I know that I seem to be putting work ahead of them, and their education, but I just can't help but feel that rent money comes first. I can't just leave us with no place to live of our own. I am taking the steps that I can to live somewhere that is income based. I feel like once I have that set into place I won't feel like I can't ask for what I want. Maybe I just need a change.  

Watch this, watch that.

So today begins the first day of diabetic control. I have been meticulously counting carbohydrates and measuring portion sizes. It is really a lot easier then I thought it would be. I still get to eat really good foods, just not as much of it as I might want. I hope this all turns out well. I am really putting forth an effort here, so far. I just hope I can stick with it. A small road block is that I'm sick a little. I woke up with the worst sore throat. I think I got it under control with some good rest and some hot tea. I just need a little more rest. I'm off to get some rest.

38 more days.

It's hard to believe that there are only 38 days left of my 20's. I am ready to hit 30 and have my 20's behind me. I am ready for this new chapter in my life, and ready to give it my all. No more childish crap (yeah right) and now it is time to be a real "grown up!" I have high expectation for my 30's. The last ten years of my life have been about learning lessons. Now it is time to put what I know to use. The pressure is on.

I didn't quit.

I have been away for a few days because there was an issue with the cable company. Arg... But all is situated now. I guess they had a glitch in their payment system and now it is fixed. I hate cable companies.

Well well, my baby shower is tonight, in about an hour or so. I am about to get ready for it so this one will be short. I am not to fond of being the center of attention but tonight I will give it a try. 

Everything went well.

Today was my son's dental surgery. It went surprisingly smooth. I had a unexpected support system by my side, but it turned out to be nice. I was joined by my son's dad and his mother. I didn't expect them to come, but they did, and I was grateful. My boy did extremely well, and the surgery center was amazing with him, and with me. I was just so glad that I didn't break down and bawl my eyes out.

Happy Labor Day!! Now get to work.

Another long work day for me. Another Labor day full of work! I am tired and hungry now. I feel like going to bed already. I have a tough day ahead of me tomorrow. My oldest son has dental surgery tomorrow and I am already feeling really emotional about the whole thing. I know he will be fine, but a mom worries. I just hope I am not an emotional wreck tomorrow. I gotta be strong for my son. I have got to teach him to be brave. Everything will be ok...

Gone again.

These are getting farther between and that is not my intention at all. I can't really say I am surprised because I knew that there would be a lot going on in my life. I am just coasting right through and trying to do my best of all the situations that I am faced with. I figure if I put my kids and family first then I can't go wrong. I just want happy, healthy children. I think we all know how that feels.

I am so tired right now, a nap sounds good. I should do a couple of things before I lay down, but I don't wanna. I just want to nap. It is Sunday, it's my right to nap. I don't have any plans, as of yet, for Labor day. I just plan on working. Oh gee wiz I am tired. 

busy and crap

So I have already had a long week. I have been going through some stuff, nothing really major, but semi major. My oldest son has to have dental surgery next week, I found that out on Monday. I also found out that I have gestational diabetes. It was kind of a lot to take in, in two days. I have just been dealing with it. Neither things are really life threatening and I am more worried about my son going under anesthesia. I have never had to and I am a little freaked out by the fact. I guess I am just glad that he will have all the dental work needed done, done and over with. He doesn't seem scared at all. I guess I am just really emotional about it. I just hope I don't sit there and cry the whole time. I need to be the strong one but it seems like he is doing that for the both of us. Ugh...I really just don't want to think about it right now. That is why I have missed a few days.